Dear Reader, I just dont want this to be the thing that holds me back. I don’t want my fear of pain, the pain I felt, to be my set back. The truth is who we are is always based on what it was like as a child. I know 10 years from now somethingContinue reading “Entry #64”
Category Archives: suspense
Entry #63
Dear Reader, I went to costco today. And the trip went great. The kids did amazing. But it was wierd. It was like walking around in a sea full of people. None of us know each other, none of us know the others story. Here I was feeling awkward for trying to do such aContinue reading “Entry #63”
Entry #62
Dear Reader, Silence. It echoes. It echoes through my head like the splash of a pebble would echo through a cavern. It speaks volumes. The silence of some of the people Ive told. The unanswered phone calls I make. The victim who stood beside me while I was abused, but isn’t able to stand byContinue reading “Entry #62”
Entry #61
Dear Reader, I spent alot of my day today distracting myself from the current events going on around me. I am realizing who the real people are in my life and it seems like every time I have accepted loosing certain people, I loose another. And its all over my choice to be honest. ThisContinue reading “Entry #61”
Entry #60
Dear Reader, First of all how is it that Ive given you a glimpse of my life through my mind 60 times now?! I am not sure many of you know how important blogging is to me. It gives me a few minutes out of each day to vent about my feelings. To write themContinue reading “Entry #60”
Entry #59
Dear Reader, You know what sucks? Watching the people you love loose themselves right in front of your eyes. What sucks is knowing why they are like that. And having no judgement because you understand why. You understand that childhood trauma caused all these issues with all of you. You know that the very peopleContinue reading “Entry #59”
Entry #58
Dear Reader, I am currently sitting in my living room listening to my kids playing on the deck outside. Playing dinosaurs splashing in a lake outside. Really its just a small pool but in there imagination, it is a lake. I remember rare moments as a child where I was fully playing and being imaginativeContinue reading “Entry #58”
Entry #57
Dear Reader, I want to be remembered as the mom who didnt go down without a fight. As the child who loved so openly even though she was treated so horribly by many people. I want to be remembered as the friend who was still there for her people even when she was struggling. IContinue reading “Entry #57”
Entry #56
Dear Reader, I used to think that noone else felt pain quite like I did. And thats true in a way because we all carry pain differently. But as I have opened up about my past and my present I have collected new wounds along the way. Like Daggers into my back with each realizationContinue reading “Entry #56”
Entry #55
Dear Reader, I’ve had a little bit of a mental frustration the past couple days. Mostly blaming myself on and off for a majority of things. You know what is funny? According to my abusers I have done this to myself. By choosing to come forward. By telling the truth. I didn’t have to doContinue reading “Entry #55”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 