Dear Reader, Writing these blogs, isnt just for you. Its for me too. To go back and remind myself what it was like nearly a year ago. And to feel and realize how much things have changed, how much I have improved. And that the words I was saying at the time to convince myselfContinue reading “Entry #86”
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Entry #86
Dear Reader, I find that awaiting this trial has made the days much longer then before. And they already felt long. But Ive been trying to look at life differently. Because really my kids are growing fast and the days are just too short. I spent my morning doing a sea turtle painting tutorial withContinue reading “Entry #86”
Entry #85
Dear Reader, Yesterday, I made a facebook post asking my friends to report the profile picture with mu son in it. And I am proud to say that Facebook has finally removed the photo. I feel a huge sense of relief as a mother. As a daughter, as a sister I feel even more betrayedContinue reading “Entry #85”
Entry #84
Dear Reader, I find myself trapped in this never ending cycle of, Disbelief, Anger, Acceptance, Peace…moving on. And it continues round and around like tires on a car. Crushing Anything and everything they run over. Sometimes The cycle crushes the peace I was feeling, sometimes it Crushes the Anger. Sometimes It just feels like itsContinue reading “Entry #84”
Entry #83
Dear Reader, A trial Date has been set for March 17 at 1:30 pm. And while that seems far away to me. It is also very close. I really didnt think we would come this far. I thought that surely, since he drove himself to the police station in February, that a part of himContinue reading “Entry #83”
Entry #82
Dear Reader, Today didn’t go as planned. And thats okay. I ended up having a better day then expected. And although Im proven time and time again who the real people are. I still found myself defending the actions of other family members. Realizing that I am adopted I am not forced into a bindingContinue reading “Entry #82”
The Truth Entry #9
Dear Reader, Gosh. I haven’t been on here in a long time. To be honest I only really like to write when I am really being open with myself about how I feel. And lately, I havent been able to do that. I felt like closing off those feelings would help me navigate every dayContinue reading “The Truth Entry #9”
Living in What is Entry #12
Dear Reader, I feel every emotion you can think of as I write this. Happiness, sadness, anxiousness, grief, and sorrow. On December 1st I got a call that My Abuser had been arrested. I felt all my emotions overwhelm me at once and I was in disbelief. This moment was huge. Ive been waitimg forContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #12”
Living in what Is Entry #11
Dear Reader, Acceptance. A step in recovering from Childhood Trauma. A word, and a feeling that I struggle with often. How do you just accept what happened? Thats the easy part honestly. Whats hard to accept is whats still happening. What will always happen. Everyday that goes on with the truth hidden behind a pieceContinue reading “Living in what Is Entry #11”
Living in What is Entry #10
Dear Reader, I got a whole lot of angry to release today. Bottled up emotions that feel like dinomite shoved into a hole in my brain. The fuse not being lit, however every now and then something happens where a spark almost lights that dinomite. Sometimes the flame is so small it begins to burnContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #10”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 