Dear Reader,
A trial Date has been set for March 17 at 1:30 pm. And while that seems far away to me. It is also very close. I really didnt think we would come this far. I thought that surely, since he drove himself to the police station in February, that a part of him wanted to make things right. Wanted to tell the truth. But something changed. He still pleads not guilty. He still refuses to admit his faults. Im not sure if him driving to the station was all just a show now or not.
I’ve been doing really well, as far as my mental health goes. Things have been improving and I have been accepting and learning how to move on. Moving on for good seems to be alot closer and possible now, then it ever did before.
I suspect I was raised by two narcissists. Maybe even sociopaths. I dont know. But I do know that being raised by them meant my brain created unhealthy ways for me to cope. With literally anything in my life. This past year I have been learning how to cope in a healthy way. It is so much harder for me to be fully present and accept whats happening. Before I would just dissociate, not allow myself to feel it and cope in the way I felt neccesary in the moment.
But now I am able to accept the situation, talk about it. And move on. I can’t wait for what the future holds for me and my family. This trial can’t come soon enough.
Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 