Dear Reader, I find myself trapped in this never ending cycle of, Disbelief, Anger, Acceptance, Peace…moving on. And it continues round and around like tires on a car. Crushing Anything and everything they run over. Sometimes The cycle crushes the peace I was feeling, sometimes it Crushes the Anger. Sometimes It just feels like itsContinue reading “Entry #84”
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Living in What is Entry #4
Dear Reader, I have spent all of my life hating change. Yet spent most days not making plans or planning ahead. My thought process with that was that if I dont think too much ahead then I wont get frustrated when plans change. I thought that way about life too. Dont think about the future,Continue reading “Living in What is Entry #4”
Living in What is Entry #2
Dear Reader, Each passing day is getting easier. Staying grounded can be exhausting. Its amazing how much effort it takes for my mind to feel like a normal human being. But It has been getting easier. I’ve found that a routine really helps me. I know what to expect throughout the day, and My kidsContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #2”
Entry #80
Dear Reader, As of today, I have chosen myself. This means I have made the tough descision to no longer speak with any of my family members for the time being. This does not mean I do not love or care for the ones who have been supporting me from day one of being publicContinue reading “Entry #80”
Entry #76
Dear Reader, I woke up on Thursday feeling at peace. Kind of like once again I was searching for answers that I know I wouldn’t get right now and just accepting that. I really hate to admit that I’ve kind of been lost in my past so deeply the last week, maybe even longer, thatContinue reading “Entry #76”
Entry #74
Dear Reader, Im still here. Im still here. Quietly in this world not wanting to dissappear. My Silent Voice whispering in the wind. My screams you feel from deep within. I hear a knock, I hear a hiss, Oh surely you accepted the Devils Kiss. The truth be told, For Sins Grown Old. The AngelsContinue reading “Entry #74”
Entry #69
Dear Reader, Letting go of fear, takes time. It seems as though we often feel afraid of what comes next. Afraid to fail, afraid to suceed, afraid of the what ifs, or the hows. Afraid of fear itself. We fear not being good enough. We fear judgement, we fear that if someone knows the realContinue reading “Entry #69”
Entry #68
Dear Reader, Today Is Fathers Day. As we all obviously know. Your social media is flooded with Posts of people thanking and appreciating there fathers. And there childrens fathers. I even posted about my own husband. Today was not as heavy on my heart as mothers day was. I think Ive come fully to theContinue reading “Entry #68”
Entry #67
Dear Reader, You know you are a mom when you spend your day doing chores that you know you will do again. And you secretly feel pride in yourself when you do it. Because even though it takes longer your kids want to help you. And you let them. Because them wadding up those cleanContinue reading “Entry #67”
Entry #55
Dear Reader, I’ve had a little bit of a mental frustration the past couple days. Mostly blaming myself on and off for a majority of things. You know what is funny? According to my abusers I have done this to myself. By choosing to come forward. By telling the truth. I didn’t have to doContinue reading “Entry #55”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 