Dear Reader,
As of today, I have chosen myself. This means I have made the tough descision to no longer speak with any of my family members for the time being. This does not mean I do not love or care for the ones who have been supporting me from day one of being public about everything.
However, I open myself up to a different level of emotions whenever I speak with any of them. I begin to imagine what my life could have been like If I had of done things differently. And It causes me to go down a dark hole. And it is not fair to do to myself or my family.
I need to Love Me, To respect Me, and to Find me. The only way to do that Is to let go of the people and memories that cause me pain. And no longer allow it have any influence in my life. Listening to God and Accepting the answers hes given me to heal has been like playing the hardest game of tug of war. “Yes Lord. YES LORD.” “OH I can’t Lord!” “Its impossible!”
It is possible. I AM healing! Healing takes time. You dont wake up from surgery healed, you wake up with a wound that can take weeks or even months to heal. Its the same with spiritual health. I woke up, But It takes time to heal and grow. I have all these wounds that need fixing. And only God, time, and hardwork will fix them.
“If you can?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for the one who believes.” Mark 9:23
Jesus replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.” Luke 18:27
And so I believe. And So I trust Him. And I know He has a plan. Do I know what it is roght now? Maybe not. But do I know it will make me a better woman and bring me closer to Him? Yes.
I Trust His Power.
Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 