Dear Reader, Today didn’t go as planned. And thats okay. I ended up having a better day then expected. And although Im proven time and time again who the real people are. I still found myself defending the actions of other family members. Realizing that I am adopted I am not forced into a bindingContinue reading “Entry #82”
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Living in What is Entry #12
Dear Reader, I feel every emotion you can think of as I write this. Happiness, sadness, anxiousness, grief, and sorrow. On December 1st I got a call that My Abuser had been arrested. I felt all my emotions overwhelm me at once and I was in disbelief. This moment was huge. Ive been waitimg forContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #12”
Living in what Is Entry #11
Dear Reader, Acceptance. A step in recovering from Childhood Trauma. A word, and a feeling that I struggle with often. How do you just accept what happened? Thats the easy part honestly. Whats hard to accept is whats still happening. What will always happen. Everyday that goes on with the truth hidden behind a pieceContinue reading “Living in what Is Entry #11”
Living in What is Entry #3
Dear Reader, Today was a day filled with laughter, reading, conversations, imagination and playfulness. Being back in my routine is nice! I have a lot more confidence throughout the day. And I am able to socialize and make jokes or relate to random peoples conversations, which then I find we share something on common andContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #3”
Entry #73
Dear Reader, I used to think family literally meant family. That somehow my kids would lack somewhere in life from not having a close relationship with my abusers. I felt like I would be missing something if I didnt. But man! That is not the case! My children are not lacking anything. They Have aContinue reading “Entry #73”
Entry #71
Dear Reader, We hear the phrase “facing your demons” all the time in conversations about healing. Its a bitter reality That some of us face some major demons . People tell us we have to face our demons in life, in order to overcome them. Whether that be how you feel about your body. OrContinue reading “Entry #71”
The Truth Entry #4
Dear Reader, This is me. The little girl whos daddy sexually abused her. The face of the little girl who Arthur Sheble was sexually attracted to. The face of the little girl who didn’t even know who she was yet. And they took everything from her. They took her innocence, they took her childhood. TheyContinue reading “The Truth Entry #4”
The Truth Entry #3
Dear Reader, She doesnt get to sit there in my county, in my world amd say that she has done nothing wrong. She does not get to claim that I am the problem. She does not get to use my mental health, that she caused, against me. She does not have the power. I do.Continue reading “The Truth Entry #3”
Entry #64
Dear Reader, I just dont want this to be the thing that holds me back. I don’t want my fear of pain, the pain I felt, to be my set back. The truth is who we are is always based on what it was like as a child. I know 10 years from now somethingContinue reading “Entry #64”
Entry #63
Dear Reader, I went to costco today. And the trip went great. The kids did amazing. But it was wierd. It was like walking around in a sea full of people. None of us know each other, none of us know the others story. Here I was feeling awkward for trying to do such aContinue reading “Entry #63”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 