Dear Reader,
This is me. The little girl whos daddy sexually abused her. The face of the little girl who Arthur Sheble was sexually attracted to. The face of the little girl who didn’t even know who she was yet. And they took everything from her.
They took her innocence, they took her childhood. They took her voice. They took her trust. They took her Love. And she can never get that back. The hours of crying. The hours of praying. The hours of fear. She can’t get that back. But she is resilient. She is fighting a fight she never should of had to fight in the first place. But that Little Girl. Is doing it. That little girl can’t go back and change things, but she can move forward and know her worth. Know who deserves her love. And she knows to never stop fighting for the truth. The Truth will come.
This is the face of the man who abused that little girl. This is the face of Arthur Sheble , the man who spent countless hours with me in front of a computer screen watching pornagraphy and making me stroke his penis. This man. Spent countless hours throughout my life time with his mouth on my vagina. On my not even fully developed body. This is the face of the man, who has put his penis in my mouth. In that tiny little mouth. He took away my very breath. And All I could think of was. This is wierd but he loves me so its okay.
This is the face of the man who swore to a judge to protect me when he adopted me but he did not. This is the face of the Man who destroyed my body. My soul and took away every ounce of self respect I had for myself. And He did it in the name of God. He did it in a church, he did it on the way home from church. He did it right after singing worship songs up on stage.
But he may have taken all that from me. But I am still standing. I am fighting for that child. The child some of you taught in school. The child who was friends with some of your children. The child whos curiosity about Jesus and God always stuck with her throughout her life. And because of God, I will win this fight. I trust him fully.
This is the face of Angela Sheble. The woman who also swore to love, nuture and protect me. But she did not. This is the face of the woman who sat on the couch pretending to be oblivious of Her husband masterbating inside my sleeping bag against my bottom. This is the face of the woman who I thought couldn’t hear what was happening and wondered what would happen if I cried out to her. This is the woman who let him come into my room countless nights to molest me. To finger my little body. To masterbate on top of me while I pretended to sleep.
She allowed it all. And The Truth Will Prevail. I will not be silenced on behalf of the feelings of anyone else who knows and loves these people. Because it doesnt matter. You can still love them and know they’ve done wrong. Know they’ve destroyed the life of children. This woman still works for Calaveras County. And I will not be silent. For my sake, for my childrens sake and for your own childrens sake.
Sincerely Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 