Category Archives: creative writing

Dear Reader, First of all how is it that Ive given you a glimpse of my life through my mind 60 times now?! I am not sure many of you know how important blogging is to me. It gives me a few minutes out of each day to vent about my feelings. To write themContinue reading “Entry #60”

Dear Reader, You know what sucks? Watching the people you love loose themselves right in front of your eyes. What sucks is knowing why they are like that. And having no judgement because you understand why. You understand that childhood trauma caused all these issues with all of you. You know that the very peopleContinue reading “Entry #59”

Dear Reader, I am currently sitting in my living room listening to my kids playing on the deck outside. Playing dinosaurs splashing in a lake outside. Really its just a small pool but in there imagination, it is a lake. I remember rare moments as a child where I was fully playing and being imaginativeContinue reading “Entry #58”

Dear Reader, I want to be remembered as the mom who didnt go down without a fight. As the child who loved so openly even though she was treated so horribly by many people. I want to be remembered as the friend who was still there for her people even when she was struggling. IContinue reading “Entry #57”

Dear Reader, I used to think that noone else felt pain quite like I did. And thats true in a way because we all carry pain differently. But as I have opened up about my past and my present I have collected new wounds along the way. Like Daggers into my back with each realizationContinue reading “Entry #56”

Dear Reader, All I ever wanted to be one day was a mother. To nurture and raise up my own little sweet babies. I have struggled a bit today with doubting myself as a mom. I blame myself for alot of things going on in our lives right now. But I know I cant doContinue reading “Entry #54”

Dear Reader, I dont really have many words to say tonight. I am desperately searching my brain for something to write about and I just have nothing left. I spent all day trying to keep myself busy with the kids, house chores and that super entertaining johnny vs Amber Trial. I spent all day tryingContinue reading “Entry #53”

Dear Reader, Today is mine and my husbands anniversary and I want to take a moment to pause from all that this blog is and appreciate the fact that this man has stayed married to me for 6 years. Hes put up with 6 years of manipulation by my family. Hes put up with 6Continue reading “Entry #52”

Dear Reader, There are moments where I wish I could go back in time. Where I would’ve said Yes In El paso when CPS and the military police asked me if my dad abused me… Moments where I scream from inside that Van instead of hide behind the front seat naked when that car droveContinue reading “Entry #51”