Category Archives: abuse

Dear Reader, We often dont speak up when we believe or suspect someones been abused. Out of fear for our own lives and reputation we allow those people to suffer in silence. Its time to change that. I know its hard. To imagine that standing up for whats right could result in a backlash fromContinue reading “Entry #35”

Dear Reader, She keeps going to work everyday. My mom. Yea She keeps living life like everything is normal. When my whole world felt like it was falling apart. Shewas unphased. When everything I’d ever known crumbled right in front of me, she went to work. She didnt feel sorry for me. She didnt makeContinue reading “Entry #34”

Dear Reader, I’ve been a bit absent today. Because my mind has been free all day. I havent had a single moment of stress. No thoughts about my crazy life. I dont feal like Im living in reality. But this is my reality. This life is my new reality every day. Soon. The craziness, theContinue reading “Entry #33”

Dear Reader, I already blogged today. But something is on my mind that I feel the need to talk about. I look at my daughter. Shes 4 months. She smiles at me everytime I make Eye contact with her. She hardly cries and when she does I just want to make her smile again. ShesContinue reading “Entry #32”

Dear Reader, Its easy to warp the mind of a child. You have to be a really sick person to train there minds for your personal gain. You really do. I was groomed in so many ways. I was taught that I was to obey my parents. No matter what. For it pleases the Lord.Continue reading “Entry #31”

Dear Reader, Something weighing heavy on my heart today is that my adoptive “family” cant or just wont give me any answers. There is no telling me why. Anytime I ask its always just “I dont know.” For example. Why when I told my mother about the abuse did she make me confront my abuser?Continue reading “Entry #30”

Dear Reader, Wow. What a day today was! I woke up feeling pretty defeated after some personal conversations I had yesterday. But my boys woke up in the happiest of moods! And they really lifted my spirits. My oldest son, Eris gave me a big hug and said in his extra cute voice “I reallyContinue reading “Entry #29”

Dear Reader, I want to talk about pain… pain can make us do unimaginable things. Pain can make us harm ourselves mentally. Or physically. For example as a child I used to heat up sewing needles and press them against my skin because the pain of that…felt better then the pain i felt in myContinue reading “Entry #28”

Dear Reader, Days like today. When I feel like I can do nothing. Are the days my mind seems to run the most wild. My mind is filled with questions after questions. Yesterday my husband and I took the kids to the snow. They laughed and giggled and squealed with joy. I watched as ourContinue reading “Entry #27”

Dear Reader, I spent all night last night. In a never ending anxiety attack. An anxiety attach over this statement “I didnt rape her I just had sex with her” Thats what my dad said. 2 Years ago about when he was admitting to us what he did to his other victim. I just hadContinue reading “Entry #26”