Dear Reader,
I’ve been a bit absent today. Because my mind has been free all day. I havent had a single moment of stress. No thoughts about my crazy life. I dont feal like Im living in reality. But this is my reality. This life is my new reality every day. Soon.
The craziness, the emptiness, and the never ending anxiety over my situation with my abusers is not going to be forever. My happiness and my sanity is right around the corner.
Standing strong is hard. I wish that I could get lost in days like today. And that the day didnt have to be over and that I didnt have to go back to my life tomorrow….
Could I just be me, this Me. All of the time. Real laughter. Real Joy. And Real pride in watching my boys interact. The safety, the security and the comfort I have been missing in my life and the fact that everywhere they go. They get to feel secure now. They will never feel alone. Or unworthy, or scared. And when they are scared they will know to come to me. They dont have to be alone in there feelings. They dont have to be alone in themselves because Im here. Im with them and I always will be.
Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 