Dear Reader,
I want to talk about pain… pain can make us do unimaginable things. Pain can make us harm ourselves mentally. Or physically.
For example as a child I used to heat up sewing needles and press them against my skin because the pain of that…felt better then the pain i felt in my heart. Pain can make us say things we regret. Like when I called some of my family members the horrid C word. Not very christian like of me right? But even I sin too. Pain can make some people commit suicide. Every moment of pain Ive felt I poured into this blog the past month because I want something possitive to come of it.
But what if the blog itself causes pain on other victims of my father that they dont want to feel? Or that they cant feel. Because maybe there pain makes them do things they regret.
I dont know. I wish I knew what was the right thing to do. How do i move on from this past life and leave behind all that pain…if i dont turn it into something good?
I am debating with myself every waking moment because I just want whats best for me to be best for everyone else…
John 14:27
Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. Sometimes an unexpected pain or illness may frighten you. Accept God’s gift of peace, and let it create a calm spirit within you.
Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 