Entry #35

Dear Reader,

We often dont speak up when we believe or suspect someones been abused. Out of fear for our own lives and reputation we allow those people to suffer in silence. Its time to change that.

I know its hard. To imagine that standing up for whats right could result in a backlash from the abusing party. But please Let me cry out to you. As a child who was stuck in sexual abuse for years and years, I would do anything to go back in time and beg someone to help me. But thats the problem. I cant go back in time. A child does not know that they have a voice. What pains me the most is that as Ive come public about my situation I am discovering that many people suspected or heard rumors of my abuser making many people feel uncomfortable. But noone said anything. Everyone kept to themselves.

Everyone wondered but thats where the problem lies. Everyone wondered but noone asked questions. They just left me. Alone. In a darkness I couldnt escape from. And even though I am an adult there are some people who are afraid to stand up. And to talk.

Imagine this. Imagine my life. Imagine my whole life being surrounded by negativity, physical and mental abuse and emptiness. Now imagine your life. Some of you are in the same possition as me. So you understand what I am talking about, but some of you fear the reprocussions of saying my truth. Out of fear for what your life might become, you remain silent. Think about what my life was what my life is.

This is how Child predators, pedophiles and molesters get away with there actions. Because we fear what they might do in our own lives. Amd they know that. They will manipulate everyone you know. They will do everything they can to get everyone else on there side. Before you even have a chance to speak out about yours.

Dont let your silence be a childs cry for help. Dont let your silence be the tears of an innocent 4 year old who doesnt know why her father, or a person she trusted is touching themselves on top of her. Dont let your silence be the brokeness that a victim feels everyday. If everyone stood up for what was right, spoke up for the children, then this world would be a better place.

So many people can still save me. They couldn’t save me when I was a child because they didnt have the facts. Well now you do and you can save me now. My mind may be twenty five years old. But it is still the mind that was once of a child. And I am only a few months in to getting to know the realness of my mind.

Be the voice I didnt have. And be the voice the person you know didnt have. Be a voice. Little do you know the overwhelming power you hold by coming forward about your own witnesses and experiences. Little do you know you can still be the change a child needs.

Love Ally