Dear Reader, I made a pretty tough descision recently, that rather then take my abusers to trial and expose them for What I know they are in my civil case. I would sign a court ordered no contact agreement. I am currently in the process of understanding what the agreement will mean before I signContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #1”
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Entry #81
Dear Reader, How my heart has room to love these three amazing children, is beyond my comprehension. But oh how I do! An individual love for each of them that I cannot compare to the other. Each one challenges me on there own ways. My oldest is so forgiving. So loving and caring. He willContinue reading “Entry #81”
Entry #80
Dear Reader, As of today, I have chosen myself. This means I have made the tough descision to no longer speak with any of my family members for the time being. This does not mean I do not love or care for the ones who have been supporting me from day one of being publicContinue reading “Entry #80”
Entry #79
Dear Reader, What a week it has been!! I have really been doing my best to keep myself busy, especially since Ive been feeling a little more like myself over the past couple weeks. It was easy for me to forget how active I like to be. My pregnancy with My daughter was physically veryContinue reading “Entry #79”
Entry #78
Dear Reader, If you Know my story. You know my Faith. You have heard me speak it and you have read it. You have seen the previous life I’ve lived. And you are witnessing the life I am living now. I stand strong in the Lord. I know his Justice is coming. I know thatContinue reading “Entry #78”
Entry #77
Dear Reader, Family. Everyone knows that word. And everyone has one right? At least at one point in there life everyone has a “family.” My family isnt shit. My “mother” will never love me the way a mother should. My “father” loved me the way a father shouldn’t. My “grandmothers” threw me away like trash.Continue reading “Entry #77”
Entry #76
Dear Reader, I woke up on Thursday feeling at peace. Kind of like once again I was searching for answers that I know I wouldn’t get right now and just accepting that. I really hate to admit that I’ve kind of been lost in my past so deeply the last week, maybe even longer, thatContinue reading “Entry #76”
Entry #75
Dear Reader, My brain is in the Sea. A sea of emotions that swell taking with it my understanding, just as it would swallow up a ship in a storm. When Most people speak of the sea, they are talking about that calm blue water, or maybe even the gentle waves brushing up against theContinue reading “Entry #75”
Entry #74
Dear Reader, Im still here. Im still here. Quietly in this world not wanting to dissappear. My Silent Voice whispering in the wind. My screams you feel from deep within. I hear a knock, I hear a hiss, Oh surely you accepted the Devils Kiss. The truth be told, For Sins Grown Old. The AngelsContinue reading “Entry #74”
Entry #73
Dear Reader, I used to think family literally meant family. That somehow my kids would lack somewhere in life from not having a close relationship with my abusers. I felt like I would be missing something if I didnt. But man! That is not the case! My children are not lacking anything. They Have aContinue reading “Entry #73”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 