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Entry #25

Dear Reader, Today. I tried to only think about my children. I found myself caught up in the past only a few times today.. for a few minutes. And honestly. Its the first good day Ive had in a while. I want to keep todays mindset as possitive as possible as My day comes toContinue reading “Entry #25”

Entry #24

Dear Reader, A childs mind is fascinating. I look at my boys and realize how full of wonder they are. I want them to experience nothing but good. I want to protect there innocence and teach them how to love themselves. I didnt love myself. I didnt have any self respect for myself because IContinue reading “Entry #24”

Entry #23

Dear Reader, I spent most of my life thinking something was wrong with me. I had a hard time focusing on things. I couldn’t hardly clean my room as a teenager. And found myself overwhelmed with daily chores in my adult life. I always assumed maybe I was lazy. But it wasn’t that at all.Continue reading “Entry #23”

Entry #22

Dear Reader, Something that I learned today is that my abusers are not sorry for what they did to me all. My whole life they tried to convince me that they were so sorry and they were changed people and that’s why I never came forward about anything. They Promised me that if they everContinue reading “Entry #22”

Entry #21

Dear Reader, I debated on whether or not to stop in and say anything today. My mind really has been all over the place. And I cant seem to find the words to express what I have been feeling. But I felt compelled to come on here anyways and just say. HE IS RISEN!! 1Continue reading “Entry #21”

Entry #20

Dear Reader, I can not help but hope that my grandparents are sitting at home right now absorbing everything I said. In absolute awe of the fact that there son was right and there daughter was manipulating them, just like she was manipulating me. I can only hope right? For some big happy family reunionContinue reading “Entry #20”

Entry #19

Dear Reader, I talked to my grandparents today… I went to there house expecting them to be open ears and extend there arms to me telling me they were so sorry what was happening to me. I thought they would be shocked by what they were hearing about my dad and my mom, there daughter.Continue reading “Entry #19”

Entry #18

Dear Readers, I feel the need to express something to everyone. Please. Please tell someone outside your family about the abuse thats happening to you. Because as a child. My mom took me to confront my dad everytime I told her he did something to me. Or to my sister. She would make me askContinue reading “Entry #18”

Entry #17

Dear Readers, Well I went to court today and exactly what I thought would happen happened. My adopted father used a memory that he had of me calling the police because I thought someone was breaking into the house and I had been left home alone. I had been left home alone as a childContinue reading “Entry #17”

Entry #16

Dear Reader, I talk about my mom alot. Because what happened to me with my Dad wasnt a big shock. I guess in the back of my mind I had always hoped hed changed. But A part of me wasn’t sure if he could. I trusted my mom. And she ended up being just asContinue reading “Entry #16”