Dear Reader, I can not help but hope that my grandparents are sitting at home right now absorbing everything I said. In absolute awe of the fact that there son was right and there daughter was manipulating them, just like she was manipulating me. I can only hope right? For some big happy family reunionContinue reading “Entry #20”
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Entry #19
Dear Reader, I talked to my grandparents today… I went to there house expecting them to be open ears and extend there arms to me telling me they were so sorry what was happening to me. I thought they would be shocked by what they were hearing about my dad and my mom, there daughter.Continue reading “Entry #19”
Entry #18
Dear Readers, I feel the need to express something to everyone. Please. Please tell someone outside your family about the abuse thats happening to you. Because as a child. My mom took me to confront my dad everytime I told her he did something to me. Or to my sister. She would make me askContinue reading “Entry #18”
Entry #17
Dear Readers, Well I went to court today and exactly what I thought would happen happened. My adopted father used a memory that he had of me calling the police because I thought someone was breaking into the house and I had been left home alone. I had been left home alone as a childContinue reading “Entry #17”
Entry #16
Dear Reader, I talk about my mom alot. Because what happened to me with my Dad wasnt a big shock. I guess in the back of my mind I had always hoped hed changed. But A part of me wasn’t sure if he could. I trusted my mom. And she ended up being just asContinue reading “Entry #16”
Entry #15
Dear Readers, Sometimes I loose my temper. Sometimes I am so afraid of feeling alone or being alone that I can tend to be a bit difficult when my partner wants to go do something alone. Its annoying even for me. I was never truely open with anyone growing up. I always had this darkContinue reading “Entry #15”
Entry #14
Dear Readers, You know whats crazy? I think that some really bad people actually convince themselves that they are good. That they are right. Its an insane cycle to even think about. How in the world can someone who sexually, emotionally and physically abused you, actually think that them convincing the whole family and allContinue reading “Entry #14”
Entry #13
Dear Readers, Sorry todays post is so late. Its been a day. I tried really hard to have a good day today. And I did Today was good. But my anxiety was really hovering over me ever since I saw my abusers yesterday. My husband actually had to remind me that that was just yesterday.Continue reading “Entry #13”
Entry #12
Dear Reader, The crazy thing about living in a world without the abusers who raised you. Is that you think you feel this lingering cloud of them all around you. But you just think you do. Until you see them and you THEN FEEL THEM. You’re slapped in the face with the reality that theyContinue reading “Entry #12”
Entry #11
Dear Readers, Im doing something a little different this time. Ive been wondering if the woman I speak of so much. Reads these. Do you think she does? Well just in case. I wrote this very special letter to her. To the woman who raised me, What do I call you? What do you prefer?Continue reading “Entry #11”
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