Entry #13

Dear Readers,

Sorry todays post is so late. Its been a day. I tried really hard to have a good day today. And I did Today was good. But my anxiety was really hovering over me ever since I saw my abusers yesterday. My husband actually had to remind me that that was just yesterday.

Because today felt like a year. Every moment felt like an hour. Ever hour felt like a day, etcetera etcetera. Thats how much power they had over me. They had so much power over me that even while having a really good day. They linger. Like hawks waiting for his prey to run across a field. I was there prey. They just watched me run across the field. But they usually called me back about half way. This time they didnt. And i made it all the way across the field.

They Cant call me back anymore because that little mouse made it into the safety net of bushes. Or in my case God. I used to hear there voices calling for me to come back. But now i hear silence on that part of my brain.

Never ever back out of your bravery. The anxiety may feel like a bitter cold nipping at your feet. But that feeling its temporary. And you will over come and you wont regret it. Just breathe.

Love Ally