Dear Reader, Letting go of fear, takes time. It seems as though we often feel afraid of what comes next. Afraid to fail, afraid to suceed, afraid of the what ifs, or the hows. Afraid of fear itself. We fear not being good enough. We fear judgement, we fear that if someone knows the realContinue reading “Entry #69”
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Entry #68
Dear Reader, Today Is Fathers Day. As we all obviously know. Your social media is flooded with Posts of people thanking and appreciating there fathers. And there childrens fathers. I even posted about my own husband. Today was not as heavy on my heart as mothers day was. I think Ive come fully to theContinue reading “Entry #68”
Entry #67
Dear Reader, You know you are a mom when you spend your day doing chores that you know you will do again. And you secretly feel pride in yourself when you do it. Because even though it takes longer your kids want to help you. And you let them. Because them wadding up those cleanContinue reading “Entry #67”
The Truth Entry #7
Dear Reader, I’ve been silent. The past few days. I haven’t had the words to describe the feelings I am experiencing. It feels so surreal. I feel Like I am processing the legal aspect of things. In my mind, I pictured that as soon as I told the truth these people would be behind bars.Continue reading “The Truth Entry #7”
Entry #66
Dear Reader, These tiny hands. These tiny hands, that once balled up into fists punching me from inside my belly. These Tiny hands, that once were so small they could only hold my finger. These tiny hands that once stroked my face until he fell asleep. These tiny hands that hold my heart, left handprintsContinue reading “Entry #66”
Entry #65
Dear Reader, Even after a long day of being emotionally exhausted. Even after a long day of spending most of the moments around the kids being possitive and happy even though I am feeling so broken. Like the bad stuff in my life thats happening cant be real. Even if Im snappy or impatient. TheyContinue reading “Entry #65”
The Truth Entry #4
Dear Reader, This is me. The little girl whos daddy sexually abused her. The face of the little girl who Arthur Sheble was sexually attracted to. The face of the little girl who didn’t even know who she was yet. And they took everything from her. They took her innocence, they took her childhood. TheyContinue reading “The Truth Entry #4”
The Truth Entry #3
Dear Reader, She doesnt get to sit there in my county, in my world amd say that she has done nothing wrong. She does not get to claim that I am the problem. She does not get to use my mental health, that she caused, against me. She does not have the power. I do.Continue reading “The Truth Entry #3”
Entry #64
Dear Reader, I just dont want this to be the thing that holds me back. I don’t want my fear of pain, the pain I felt, to be my set back. The truth is who we are is always based on what it was like as a child. I know 10 years from now somethingContinue reading “Entry #64”
Entry #63
Dear Reader, I went to costco today. And the trip went great. The kids did amazing. But it was wierd. It was like walking around in a sea full of people. None of us know each other, none of us know the others story. Here I was feeling awkward for trying to do such aContinue reading “Entry #63”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 