Dear Reader,
I’ve been silent. The past few days. I haven’t had the words to describe the feelings I am experiencing. It feels so surreal. I feel Like I am processing the legal aspect of things.
In my mind, I pictured that as soon as I told the truth these people would be behind bars. But they aren’t. That isnt what happened and its hard to fathom that. Its hard to fathom the entire judical process. It feels slow. I feel forgotten. I know I am not forgotten. But it is hard to fight a battle like this, even with so many people showing there support and love. I mostly spend my time being as encouraging as possible. Telling you all that I have the power is true. But I would be lying to you, if I said that the power I feel meant everyone is listening to me. Sometimes it feels like they are not. Sometimes I am screaming inside of my body because all of the facts are right here in front of everyone but too many people are too worried about there own reputations to reach out to the victims in this situation. My abusers have rights, just like anyone else. And unfortunately, in california it feels like they have more.
I took down my Truth Entries as you all may have noticed. I did not take them down because they are not true. I took them down because sadly the judicial system can hold those posts against me.
And don’t get me wrong. I know that. I knew that. But over the past few days I have accepted the fact that My abusers would willingly take everything they possibly can away from me and away from my children to save there despicable meaningless reputation.
I have come to terms with the fact that my kids, there lives, matter more then anything else. And I will put those posts back up one day. I will. As I do not regret writing them. I took my power back inside of me. Writing those down gave me a voice. But For now, I must be silent about this case. Anything I say can and will be used against me in a court of law.
I want you all to know that I never plan to stop fighting. And one day. The courts will proove The Truth. And anyone who ever doubted me will get to read those posts and know that every word of it was true. And I have never defamed there character. As there character is a fake facade in an attempt to manipulate the people around them. I may be silent on my blog about this story for the time being. But I am not silent in my every day life. I do have the power. I just can’t move mountains on my own. Its going to take time.
Thanks for giving me my Voice Readers, And I can’t wait for the horrible things Ive suffered in my life, to be something that sparks the good, the Love, the strength, the pride, and the confidence in someone else. Because I know this happened to me for a reason. And I know that I am not alone.
Sincerely Love Ally
Dear Reader, Love Ally 