Dear Reader, I am feeling mostly back to myself today. I came across an old live I did 4 years ago and watching myself be so confident made me miss those days. I can not wait to be more confident again in myself! My current opinions and beliefs are very new to me, and IContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #8”
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Living in What is Entry #7
Dear Reader, As I write this I want to make it known both to you and myself, that these feelings I am expressing are not a result of my being defeated or brought down by my enemies. It is the real raw emotion that I feel and that any victim whos suffered like I haveContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #7”
Living in what is Entry #6
Dear Reader, I often find myself wondering why Ive had so many emotional break downs over everything happening in my life. It can be over things that I know I have already fully accepted. But every now and then I am reminded that there are still some fragments of my mind that do not wantContinue reading “Living in what is Entry #6”
Living in What is Entry #3
Dear Reader, Today was a day filled with laughter, reading, conversations, imagination and playfulness. Being back in my routine is nice! I have a lot more confidence throughout the day. And I am able to socialize and make jokes or relate to random peoples conversations, which then I find we share something on common andContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #3”
Living in What is Entry #1
Dear Reader, I made a pretty tough descision recently, that rather then take my abusers to trial and expose them for What I know they are in my civil case. I would sign a court ordered no contact agreement. I am currently in the process of understanding what the agreement will mean before I signContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #1”
Entry #80
Dear Reader, As of today, I have chosen myself. This means I have made the tough descision to no longer speak with any of my family members for the time being. This does not mean I do not love or care for the ones who have been supporting me from day one of being publicContinue reading “Entry #80”
Entry #78
Dear Reader, If you Know my story. You know my Faith. You have heard me speak it and you have read it. You have seen the previous life I’ve lived. And you are witnessing the life I am living now. I stand strong in the Lord. I know his Justice is coming. I know thatContinue reading “Entry #78”
Entry #77
Dear Reader, Family. Everyone knows that word. And everyone has one right? At least at one point in there life everyone has a “family.” My family isnt shit. My “mother” will never love me the way a mother should. My “father” loved me the way a father shouldn’t. My “grandmothers” threw me away like trash.Continue reading “Entry #77”
Entry #75
Dear Reader, My brain is in the Sea. A sea of emotions that swell taking with it my understanding, just as it would swallow up a ship in a storm. When Most people speak of the sea, they are talking about that calm blue water, or maybe even the gentle waves brushing up against theContinue reading “Entry #75”
Entry #73
Dear Reader, I used to think family literally meant family. That somehow my kids would lack somewhere in life from not having a close relationship with my abusers. I felt like I would be missing something if I didnt. But man! That is not the case! My children are not lacking anything. They Have aContinue reading “Entry #73”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 