Dear Readers, Im doing something a little different this time. Ive been wondering if the woman I speak of so much. Reads these. Do you think she does? Well just in case. I wrote this very special letter to her. To the woman who raised me, What do I call you? What do you prefer?Continue reading “Entry #11”
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Entry #10
Dear Reader, The last 2 days have been surreal for me. I hung out with my brother. And we tried so hard to keep the conversations as far from our parents as possible. But no matter what we were talking about the memories seemed to fall back on them. It was painful for me. PainfulContinue reading “Entry #10”
Entry #9
Dear Reader, My mind is blown. As I look at my art studio today. I see the pottery wheel placed to the left of the room. Theres a bear sculpture holding a bird in the right back corner. His fur is detailed, and there are wild flowers sculpted around him. Theres pottery bowls to theContinue reading “Entry #9”
Entry #8
Dear Reader, Today I had a therapy appt for my boys. We talked about whats been going on and I felt compelled to explain to you all what living in my life right now is like. It feels like I am living in two different worlds. One where I try to make everything as normalContinue reading “Entry #8”
Entry #7
Dear Reader, Its moments like these where I feel like They’ve won. Moments where everything is so silent. And the silence is pain. My husband went to bed tonight, hardly saying a word to me. And I know why and I know its not his fault. Maybe not even mine. But I feel like theyContinue reading “Entry #7”
Entry #6
Dear Reader, Today at my MOPS meeting they talked about fear. And it got me thinking. Fear is what prevented me from facing the truth in the first place. Fear of what people would say about me if they knew what my life was like. Fear of loosing friends. Fear of the unknown. Fear ofContinue reading “Entry #6”
Entry #5
Dear Reader, I found out my adoptive father was finally served on April 1st. He probably thought it was an April Fools Joke. I wish all of this was some sick April fools joke. But its not. Its real and he hurt me and my family. The past month waiting for this moment felt likeContinue reading “Entry #5”
Entry #4
Dear Reader, Life has a funny way of slapping us in the face sometimes. This weekend Ive felt unproductive. No calling investigators, or trying to get things rolling. Just enjoying my family. Today when i was out riding my horse, I felt this overwhelming peace surrounding me. This is my life. This is me. IContinue reading “Entry #4”
Entry #2
Dear Reader, I said In my last blog that I grew up in the church. So you know that means I was raised to Forgive. Let me just say that I do forgive both of my parents. I am not telling my story to be spiteful or get revenge. I am telling my story inContinue reading “Entry #2”
Entry #1
Dear Reader I was born In December, 3 Days after Christmas. My childhood wasn’t your average learn to explore at your own rate. It was hard. It was busy. It felt empty. I cant even begin to describe the absense i felt in my life. I didnt know what was missing. I do now. ButContinue reading “Entry #1”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 