Entry #2

Dear Reader,

I said In my last blog that I grew up in the church. So you know that means I was raised to Forgive. Let me just say that I do forgive both of my parents. I am not telling my story to be spiteful or get revenge. I am telling my story in hopes that it saves someone reading these.

It is good to forgive. But forgiveness does not mean forgetfulness. It does not mean you have to continue to allow the toxic people you fogave to be actively involved in your life. I made that mistake. My mom said this to me. And I quote.
‘Please to do not be trapped in the narrative of victimhood. You are an overcomer. Witholding forgiveness is like drinking poison and waiting for it to affect the other person. The only one Negatively affected is you and your family.’

She was right. But what she was wrong about was that I am not with holding forgiveness. However I do not HAVE to live in paranoia in order to prove I forgave them. I can forgive them because it is God’s Job to Love them and to Judge them. I can forgive them because In my heart I feel people this evil dont even know right from wrong anymore. My mom wants me to believe that in order to prove to her that I have forgiven them that I have to allow them to be present in my kids lives. Thats how they got me. Thats how they had access to my children. Because I believed them. Because I believed forgiveness meant Forgetting.

Learn From Me. Learn From my mistakes. Forgive. But do not Forget the past. Instead Learn from it and use that persons abuse as a tool for possitivity in your own life.

Love Ally ❤️