Category Archives: parenting

Dear Reader, All I ever wanted to be one day was a mother. To nurture and raise up my own little sweet babies. I have struggled a bit today with doubting myself as a mom. I blame myself for alot of things going on in our lives right now. But I know I cant doContinue reading “Entry #54”

Dear Reader, I dont really have many words to say tonight. I am desperately searching my brain for something to write about and I just have nothing left. I spent all day trying to keep myself busy with the kids, house chores and that super entertaining johnny vs Amber Trial. I spent all day tryingContinue reading “Entry #53”

Dear Reader, Today is mine and my husbands anniversary and I want to take a moment to pause from all that this blog is and appreciate the fact that this man has stayed married to me for 6 years. Hes put up with 6 years of manipulation by my family. Hes put up with 6Continue reading “Entry #52”

Dear Reader, There are moments where I wish I could go back in time. Where I would’ve said Yes In El paso when CPS and the military police asked me if my dad abused me… Moments where I scream from inside that Van instead of hide behind the front seat naked when that car droveContinue reading “Entry #51”

Dear Reader, She probably loved me. My mom. Im sure she did. Im sure despite the way she sided with my dad, she loves me in some way. Right? I dont even like to think of it. I dont even like to think of the possibility that she still cares about me. Because if sheContinue reading “Entry #50”