Dear Reader, Acceptance. A step in recovering from Childhood Trauma. A word, and a feeling that I struggle with often. How do you just accept what happened? Thats the easy part honestly. Whats hard to accept is whats still happening. What will always happen. Everyday that goes on with the truth hidden behind a pieceContinue reading “Living in what Is Entry #11”
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Living in What is Entry #10
Dear Reader, I got a whole lot of angry to release today. Bottled up emotions that feel like dinomite shoved into a hole in my brain. The fuse not being lit, however every now and then something happens where a spark almost lights that dinomite. Sometimes the flame is so small it begins to burnContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #10”
Living in What is Entry #9
Dear Reader, While I am very thankful for the veterans who have put there lives on the line for our country, as well as uprooted the lives of there families to go to there postings. I feel like today is a good time for me to speak about how corrupt our viewpoint of veterans is.Continue reading “Living in What is Entry #9”
Living in What is Entry #8
Dear Reader, I am feeling mostly back to myself today. I came across an old live I did 4 years ago and watching myself be so confident made me miss those days. I can not wait to be more confident again in myself! My current opinions and beliefs are very new to me, and IContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #8”
Living in What is Entry #7
Dear Reader, As I write this I want to make it known both to you and myself, that these feelings I am expressing are not a result of my being defeated or brought down by my enemies. It is the real raw emotion that I feel and that any victim whos suffered like I haveContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #7”
Living in what is Entry #6
Dear Reader, I often find myself wondering why Ive had so many emotional break downs over everything happening in my life. It can be over things that I know I have already fully accepted. But every now and then I am reminded that there are still some fragments of my mind that do not wantContinue reading “Living in what is Entry #6”
Living in What is Entry #5
Dear Reader, I feel an overwhelming sense of relief as I write this, but also an overbearing amount of grief as well. I officially recieved the court issued no contact order regarding my civil case with my adopted parents. They officially cannot legally contact me or my family ever again. And while this is exactlyContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #5”
Living in What is Entry #3
Dear Reader, Today was a day filled with laughter, reading, conversations, imagination and playfulness. Being back in my routine is nice! I have a lot more confidence throughout the day. And I am able to socialize and make jokes or relate to random peoples conversations, which then I find we share something on common andContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #3”
Living in What is Entry #1
Dear Reader, I made a pretty tough descision recently, that rather then take my abusers to trial and expose them for What I know they are in my civil case. I would sign a court ordered no contact agreement. I am currently in the process of understanding what the agreement will mean before I signContinue reading “Living in What is Entry #1”
Entry #81
Dear Reader, How my heart has room to love these three amazing children, is beyond my comprehension. But oh how I do! An individual love for each of them that I cannot compare to the other. Each one challenges me on there own ways. My oldest is so forgiving. So loving and caring. He willContinue reading “Entry #81”
Dear Reader, Love Ally 